i shouldnt be the one to complain about anything...

why?

because there is someone out there... who's experiencing worse than i am over even more horrible reasons...

what do i do when the tears dont want to stop falling???

what do i do when i really feel like breaking?

when the world i woke up to just this morning is one of the reasons why i want to be embraced by the darkness so bad?

what do i do when i really feel so bad?

what do i do when the people who are trying to help me are just making me feel worse?

what do i do when the only thing i'm depending on to make me feel intact is gone?

i'm not drug or alcoholic dependant...

i use music to keep me calm...

but what if i lost all the songs i need just like that?

solution? download it right?

what if i need them RIGHT NOW?

what if i couldnt reach to my mask ontime???

what if i couldnt put it on?

i've never felt o vulnerably empty and insanely broken before...

and those who try to help are just making the wound open up even more...

what if i just died...?

that would mean an end to everything right?

would that be a better way out?

i can never understand the onslaught of life...

and i dont think i can every go around it... since i cant go through it...

will i just be infront of it?

a willing captive-slave for its every whim?

maybe this is what it's all about...

i dont know...

maybe i should just stop...