to be continued~ ^^,

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

here are the results of the quizilla quizzes that i took...

My inner child is sixteen years old today

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Hell. You are most likley to commit suicide
tomorrow even! you think that you are a
worthless piece of shit that is taking up
peoples time, money and lives. you hate
yourself and you just basically sit up in your
room all day and listen to music, do drugs, cut
urself or other shit like that. please dont
worry though. it might get better. you never
know. life works in mysterious ways. please
rate!!!! `-)

Are you going to commit suicide? (PLEASE RATE) `-)
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You got Vash from Trigun!

...:::Who's Your Anime Boyfriend?:::...
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ur inyuasha!! u r pretty kool too!! u don't show
your weaknesess u try & act like u don't give a
damn... but inside ur a saint... + u care bout
ur freinds but uv got family issuse

my 1st personality quiz!! of course it involves anime !! it's probably better if ya'll girls take it rather than guys just saving some troubs fyi
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Shadow warrior, You kill anyone you hate, You have
great potential as well as lust.

Are you a shadow warrior?
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You're about as gothic as they get. If you ever get
the chance, IM me at Gothic Chick626.

Are you gothic?
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Eh...Your skimming on the edge...You still have 90%
sanity going on in your tater...

Are You A Psycho?!
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Fire. you love a man of passion that burns only for you. he is strong and bold. He is not afraid to love you just afraid to lose you. not to mention he is quite yummy.......mmm
Fire. You want a boy who is passionate and has a
fire that only burns for you..he is strong and
not afraid of loving you...only losing
you...not to mention he is quite

(FINISHED YAY!!) What Kind of Boy Do you want (for girls only/ *unless your gay of course*)
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Your Heart is Red

What Color is Your Heart?
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Your element is Earth. I hate to say it but you are
down to earth. Stubborn and loyal. You tend to
want to nurture others and you are the one
person friends always come to for awnsers.
Without people like you others would be flying
over the edge because, whether you know it or
not you keep a steady beat to your life and
will end up where you want to in the end. There
is a sureness about you that is hard to match
that draws people to you. No matter what
happens the Earth keeps turning.

What's your element
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Vampire Bunny Bunny
You have a cold heart and you don't care. The
worries of the comman man are beneath your
notice. You are a little self obsessed though,
better watch out for things that go bump in the

The Ultimate quiz to see if you're Evil
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You represent... apathy.
You represent... apathy.
You don't really show any emotion. You can be
considered cruel and cold, but you just don't
really care about anything. This is just the
way you are... you're quite a challenge to get
close to, and others may perceive you as

What feeling do you represent?
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You have a fetish for punk guys with black glasses
who skate!

(Girls) What's your fetish? with pix!
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you suck, and that's sad
you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit

which happy bunny are you?
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u are a full vampire!! You are turned on by blood
and the sun and holy objects anger you greatly.
U prefer to go party on weekends and like large
crowds. And you enjoy watching others you know

*!How much of a vampire are you?!*
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u will die happy with no worries and all your
problems have been solved no one hates u

how will u die?
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?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Cool! you are a Cybergoth! Ur not a vampire or a
fairy, but you are most like the creature which
enjoys going to dangerous night clubs filled
with dangerous people. You are basically very
spontaneous, dangerous, feisty and clever, and
ofcoarse very fun to be around.

(results contain pictures)what IMMORTAL night creature are you?
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Your punk.You are a level below gothic but you are
close.You have a pretty mature attitude but you
can also be rather extreme and motivated.You
usually dress in black because you know down
deep its the only color that suits you.You have
quite a few friends though you have never been
into attracting the opposite sex,which you
would think is a wonderful thing

.::Is your innerself punk or gothic?::.
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<<>>???What Kind Of Angel R You???<<>>( Anime Pics )

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GAME BOY - Born to Play
A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of
sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have
your electronics you feel you can cope. Time
goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room
hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your
favourite collection of guitar-driven albums.
Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour,
Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life,
action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.
EXTRA: Your personality type is the only one on
this quiz that would enjoy www.life-
blood.cjb.net. Check it out!

What kind of girl are you?
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You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.

What kind of kiss are you?
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You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.

What Kind of Smile are You?
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Class goth. thats what you sound like; depressed
and sad. you hate posers and preps..for that
matter. whats the difference?- and you love
poetry. you hang out with the sad group
drinking your coffee..good. dont ever turn to
be a poser, believe me. its sad.
very...very..sad. you go well with class
clowns- and REAL punks.

!!!! What 'label' are you? take this quiz and find out.. ????? - are you a goth? or a punk? FIND OUT!.
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Your hotaru! your magic skills are mostly fire based and you are no doubtly short for your age and you talk to animals!
Your hotaru! your magic skills are mostly fire
based and you are no doubtly short for your age
and you talk to animals!

(For girls only)What character from Magic Knights Rayearth are you?
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parents sex

what's YOUR deepest secret?
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Ichi - "That one with wisdom"
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What would your Japanese name be? (female)
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Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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What's your sexual appeal?
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(females)what is one of your past lives? (results contain pictures)
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The ULTIMATE personality test
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You hate Relena! You wan't her to burn in hell!!
And who can possibly blame ya?? Good for you!
Let's just hope she really does get blown up...

(girls/gays/bisexuals please) What kind of Relena fan are you? (gundam wing)
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You Are Lord Aoshi. My my the strong and silent
type and also sexy your quit a ladys man..Well
if you pay any heed of them you could be.You
use to be the leader of the oniwabanshuu. And
you voiwed to them with flowers of
revang..those flowers of course in Kenshins
blood. But in the end you come on the good side
and stop chasing Kenshin and start to love the
one that loves you the most Makimachi Misao.

Which Rurouni Kenshin Character Are You?
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Kenshin :)
Kenshin is the man for you. He's gentle and kind,
and he'll even do your laundry!

(Girls) Which Rurouni Kenshin guy is for you?
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Well, you had a pretty ordinary day.....actually
where were you? Did you even have a day?? Or
did you just sleep through the whole thing and
not even realise that the damn sun went round
da planet. I would kill to have days like

Have you been having a shitty day?
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cuddle and a kiss
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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your fuck.

What swear word are you?
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Your: Mysterious eyes. All in the title. Your independant secretive and myseterious. You appear cold and distant, but hey, at least no one messes with you.
Your: Mysterious eyes. All in the title. Your
independant secretive and myseterious. You
appear cold and distant, but hey, at leats no
one messes with you.

What type of eyes do you have?
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You're Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."

Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
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The Lasombra
You are from clan Lasombra. The Lasombra clan has
fallen from grace - and its members enjoy it.
Simultaneously graceful and predatory, the
Lasombra guide - and, when necessary, whip -
the Sabbat into an implacable force. Turning
their backs upon the humans they once were,
Lasombra give themselves wholly over to the
dark majesty of the Embrace. Murder, frenzy,
predation: Why fear these things, many Lasombra
ask, if one is meant to be a vampire? In
contrast to the Tzimisce, though, Lasombra
generally seek not to reject all things mortal,
but to shape them for their own
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What Vampire Clan Are You In (More Clans)
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Legardored is your Vampire name.
You are one hell of an insane Vampire. Anyone who
messes with you is out of their minds.
To use your new Vampire name and become a Vampire,
go here:

What is your Vampire name?
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Which Saiyuki Boy are you?

Which Saiyuki boy are you?

Take the Saiyuki Quiz at anime-doll.com
don't look at me!!! i just answered the quiz!

You're Yusuke Urameshi!Yusuke is a punk,that puts
on a tough guy act.You probably do too.Yusuke
is a bad attitude,nice guy kinda person.Bet'cha
you just like that,eh?His attacks are the Rei
Gun,Spirit Shotgun,Spirit wave and maybe
more.Yusuke's cool!

Which Yu Yu Hakusho character are you?
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Friday, October 17, 2003

i finished reading merrick today...

like before... anne rice's words captivated, entranced and excited me till the end...

which just made me long for more of her works...

i was so hooked that i wrote a poem about it...

but i dont feel like posting it just yet because it still doesnt have a title...

i know i've posted a lot of poems that are untitled but i feel that this one should have a title...


Thursday, October 16, 2003


i got no words to inspire...
i got not words to love...
i got no words to comfort...
and i got no words to heal...

i am only capable of uttering curses...
chanting sorrow and pain...
whispering badluck and rain...
and hoping water blood in my veins...

i am always distantly close...
the friend only a few chose...
open to accept their tears...
neglecting my own fears...

allow me a second to reveal...
the side of me you didnt know was real...
allow me a minute to feel...
the love i've always longed to feel...

***i didnt know what to write on this blog... so i flew this poem instead...***

Monday, October 06, 2003

... why why why why why...????!?!?!?


i feel so pathetic...

Thursday, October 02, 2003

... things aren't going my way...

... my mother is screaming at me on a daily basis...

... my sister is being a royal bitch... as usual...

and well... my life is sucking more than usual...

and i simply do not want to talk to about why i'm being cranky, sullen and more pessimistic than usual...

i miss dale... i miss having someone... to talk to... i mean... a real person i can relate to...

i have a group of friends sure... but they barely understand me... i dont think they even try... which is a good thing for them coz if they tried to understand me... they'll end up in crazy town...

...i really wish i could actually kill myself without having the religious shit nagging at me...

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

this was supposed to be yesterday's post... until my pc froze... again... for the nth time...

... all welcome sullen, pessimistic me ...

don't get me wrong... i still like the quote from last time's post and well... that's basically it....


1st quarter is finished... i'm "enjoying" my "vacation" or "sem/term break"... i passed by the way... i got a 2.75 weighted average... i dont really care what grade i get as long as i pass... but now that reality has brushed against me... i'm starting to care because my father cares what grade i get... i guess he has every reason to be worried... i mean... i'm not as academically inclined as my sister... and i guess you really can't transfer to another school with an average so close to the passing score...

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
["perfect" by simple plan, lyrics from: lyric spot]

pathetic dont you think so...? pathetic little me... :)


i'll leave everything to that...