to be continued~ ^^,

Monday, January 31, 2005

a whole bunch of new clothes and a pair of hush puppies later...


i'm enjoying the whole descha thing... i enjoyed it sooo damn much i requested//ordered kuya gino to make me a floorplan on the room my character is living in and a picture of my character...

he's finished with a sketch of my character...

ch... look at gino's devart for more details... i'm too lazy to link shit...




Friday, January 28, 2005

what the heck?!

okay... i went to ust yesterday to watch RITMO... it's this inter-collegiate music contest thingy... has three parts... first was the solo competition and then the chorale competition and then a couple of spanking numbers from the company

sure... my right hand hurt after holding the bloody handy cam to record stuff for some time... and ended up incredibly hungry after being stuck for more than 3 hours in that bloody auditorium... i ended up having fun...


i'm currently having my first descha episode... O.o ... so far so good... *shrug*

i should end this post... now...

Tuesday, January 25, 2005


listen...//read on...

Hot Ride
by Prodigy

You hear me
You hear me
You hear me

Up, up and away in my beautiful, my beautiful
Up, up and away in my beautiful, my beautiful balloon

Up, up and away in my beautiful, my beautiful balloon
Make it out

Gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme
Gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme a ride

Gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme
Gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme a ride

Hotride in my air balloon
Skipping fast right around the moon
On a bullet train out of town
Walkie-talkie, one hand down

You hear me
You hear me

Up, up and away in my beautiful, my beautiful
Up, up and away in my beautiful, my beautiful balloon

Up, up and away in my beautiful, my beautiful balloon
I push you out

Gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme
Gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme a ride

Gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme
Gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme a ride

Hotride in my air balloon
Skipping fast right around the moon
On a bullet train out of town
Walkie-talkie, one hand down

Hotride in my air balloon
Skipping fast right around the moon
Mind’s made up
Their’s no luck when time leaves you

Hotride in my air balloon
Skipping fast right around the moon
Time's made up
Their’s no luck when time leaves you

You gotta push it!
Push it!
You gotta push it!
Push it!
You gotta push it!
Push it!
You gotta push it! (On my air balloon)
Push it! (On my air balloon)
You gotta push it!

and then maybe you can dance with me...

Sunday, January 23, 2005

what the fuck is going on?!?

okay... last friday... i went with my mom to the airport in accordance to my dad's uhmm... bleah... sentence/phrase/word to go to get my much awaited computer electronics shit...

but neither my mom or i knew who we were going to meet... same with my cousin... meh... so i raked my brain for past conversations//emails with my dad to know who's coming...

i got incredibly pissed and irritated waiting for 2++ hours in that very populated and warm place... geh...

i had mommy call of my folk's common friends to ask who's coming...

and my suspicion was confirmed... it was my dad who took the manila plane... meh...

meh... geh... bleah... rawr... ch~...

damn it!

but it's cool... my dad's staying over for 11 days in total... 8 more to go... fuuu...

i miss tenchan very muuuuch!!!

*pouts* **feels a tantrum boiling**

i wanna be with tenchan damn it!!! nyuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!


meh... i wanna go out... myu!!!



shoutout: YAAANG!!! do you have a blog, lj, whatever? do post the url... or if anyone else knows about yang's internet whereabouts do tell...

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Subete wo uke tome you to ( YEAH! )Kanji mashita

does it sound familiar?

it should...

:P it's from Morning Musume's The Peace...

XD i finally got hold of the bloody song's mp3... don't look at me like that... i'm not the only one having to deal with an incredibly slow internet connection and minimal mem space...


hugs and kisses

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Self Deception
by: Lacuna Coil

I'll never waste another day
searching to find the reason
why did I choose to play this game
this goes too far
I'll take no more

I played the part and took the blame
while you pretend nothing is real

life turned to night as you're asleep
blood flowing down, is this a dream?

Liar, you tempt me

I don't know what to do
no guilt is in my heart
I don't know what to do
I'm not the reason

I'll never waste another day
forever lost
no reason
he never choose to play this game
taken too far out of control

Liar, you tempt me

I don't know what to do
no guilt is in my heart

I don't know what to do
I'm not the reason

Thursday, January 13, 2005

it feels like it has been ages since i last put up something here...

i haven't been doing much lately... i'm just thriving... i'm not really busy and i dont really have anything written in my agenda...

i'm starting to doubt the sanity of my decision to go on leave from school... but i suppose this is still better than wasting my folk's money since i doubt if i will actually put some decent effort into studying a subject that i dont particularly feel passionate about...


but having freetime is not entirely bad... i get to rest... although i'm more exposed to my mother and sister's whatnots i still manage to get some rest...

*sigh* but being with my mom and my sister more often than i got used to makes me feel like i'm a character in a bloody mexican telenovela where everyone is out to get me... >.<;; it's silly... but i can't help but feel like the very much antagonized protagonist in this household... maybe i just need to get away... have a little break from the house...

maybe i should try to get that job creole told me about... salesperson at some comic
alley store... atleast i would be surrounded by anime stuffage... oh well...

for that i need a resume and my mom's consent... meh... i will never be able to get out of this house... *sigh* i doubt if my mom will let me... if i'm lucky id get away with a 30 minute scream fest... otherwise i think i would be grounded... showered with a very looong sermon with a handfull of screams here and there... geh...

i think i'll just burn time by learning css... geez... i put together my blog layout and i didnt know what css was... so much for my so-called genius...

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Tuesday, January 11, 2005

where did all the decent/sane people go??!

when one is bored and left with nothing to do one does what? go online... update blogs/lj/whatever... chat... browse... surf... bleah...

so i do my usual thing when i go online... my ym and msn are on... checked on my lj and blog for replies and stuff... and i parked my nick in some random ym anime chatroom...

i was looking for gothic lolita stuff here in the philippines... results were nothing more than useless so i thought of going to another chatroom...

i ended up in one of those metro manila ym chatroom thingies... i got hits from spam bots... and then i got im-ed by 3 perverted halfwits who didnt not seem to speak decent english and believed the keyboard can only produce CAPITAL LETTERS...

... i left the room after 5 minutes... i didnt even bother asking if anyone new about gothic lolita... it was incredibly annoying...

*huff* so now... i am, once again, left with nothing to do... i finished reading the book i bought from booksale for Php 120.00

it's a pretty decent book... it's entitled sweet miss honeywell's revenge... a ghost story written by kathryn reiss... and i guess the author intended the book to be read by young adults... the back of the book says... for ages 10 and up... -.-;;


i got the book last year... but i only started reading it last night and finished it this morning... it's not that long... and it's not that complicated... but it's not a total bore either... the plot is solid and good enough to make me feel a little excited and anxious about what the next series of events would be...

the only drawback that i can see is that... it's predictable... atleast... it was to me... i guess books from the "young adults" section are meant to be that way...


if any of you guys want to borrow the book just leave a message on the chatterbox or drop me a call...

i haven't used khan's gift yet... it's a Php 500 national bookstore gift check by the way... nyuuu... i wonder what i'll get with it and when i could possibly go to a national bookstore branch...



the next anime convention is drawing near... feb 18-20, 2005 are the tentative, but most likely, dates... and i still dont have clothes for the bloody event... i tossed the idea of cosplaying out of the window... ten-chan would skin me alive if i went as alexiel in this costume:

and i dont think he would appreciate me going as some male anime character either...

*sigh* ...i should get a job since my mom wouldnt support me in anything i show interest in doing... she's just concerned about my sister and to make herself look good in the eyes of my dad... thought i think it's a little too late for the latter...

reality bites... and it bites real hard...

i wish i could be run over by some car... but if i come out alive that would mean more financial shit for my dad to deal with and more money my mom could shower on my sister...


man... i really do harbor a lot of hate... maybe i should go see a doctor... but wait... i can't! mom thinks it's not needed... she doesn't think i'm insane... lol... she's a psychology graduate you see... so i guess she can see that i am not, in the very least, mentally impaired... right... damn it...

i think i bitched long enough for today... i'll save the rest for tomorrow...

Sunday, January 09, 2005

what the fuck is it with guys and fireworks? i mean... i know the community is celebrating the black nazarene fiesta thing but why in seven hells did those inconciderate fools light up a good number of fireworks?

i'm sorry... it's just that... the smell is too much... and the ringing in my ears still hasnt died down... bastards...

on the lighter side of my life...

here are the promises my mom made to me...
  1. get me a pair of contacts
  2. enroll me in a driving school
  3. sign me up at slimmer's world to work my fat off and out of my body
  4. give me the chance, blessing and money to go to a vocational school at the moment...

... i bet my sorry ass that none of that... as in absolutely none of that will happen...

whatever... i just have so much hate and anger right now... towards my mom and the indecisive bitch *alsdkjlkjtlnlkndsljkf*... ... no... it's not a typo... i just typed what i had in mind that way...

if you're just going to make me hate you... FUCK OFF!!!

... i want to buy new clothes and i'm still to get myself a pair of doll shoes... meh... i hate not having money and not feeling content with what i have...

*tugs on pigtails...*

Thursday, January 06, 2005

i know i've answered this test before but hey... i was bored... got it net surfing... :P

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Low
Level 2 (Lustful)High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Low
Level 7 (Violent)Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Your Gothic... Maybe even a bit Vampyric... Your
very sensitive, sometimes you can be outgoing
in your own population. Your sometimes Lonely,
but when your alone your much happier. If your
suicidal, it's okay, because your the kewlest
person I know!....well don't actually know you
but yeah! Write me and Tell Me if you picked
Napoleon or Ron!

Are you a Vampire/Goth/Punk/Poser/Emo/ or just a plain PREP!?
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You are a Chinese/Asian Dancer. You are the
smartest in the party, you have a beautiful
creative mind and you like to use it to help
your loved ones, you care a lot about your
friends and you try always to protect them and
give them advice. Your ideal man is the one
with a strong determined character, you like to
feel safe with him.

What kind of dancers are you? (Girls only)
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You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writting.
Maybe you should try.

What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
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You are a dark girl. You have a really quiet and
really a i dont' care attitude. You like to be
alone and that is what you enjoy. You don't
like to be around others and you'd rather be
away from here. You have a get away from me
look and others find you bitchy and
self-rigious. You'd rather read than be at a
fair but that's ok because that's who you are.

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Wednesday, January 05, 2005

... i dont have direction...

i once more, find myself stuck... stranded... stationary... blank... limp... meh...

i cant even begin to describe what i'm feeling right now... i just wish it was saturday already so i could be with ten-chan... i think that's the only place where i feel sane and safe...

it's getting late... i should try to get some sleep...


... i have not been getting decent hours of sleep recently... no matter how early or how late i sleep... i always wake up after the 4th hour of my rest... what the hell is wrong with me?

anyway... yesterday morning my mom had me book her roundtrip tickets *mla-bcd, bcd-mla*. i tried the online reservation thing... it was pretty fun... PAL's online booking system is simple and direct enough that even a person going on their first flight and is not familiar with any airline jargon can accomplish this task.

it would seem that everything is in cruise control when i hit the last step in booking the damned flight... it asked for my credit card number... i dont have a bloody credit card... mommy doesnt have one either... so i resorted to calling the office number... the site has a list of their ticket offices and their particulars... i called the one in manila... who's office hours are from 0300 till 2200... it was 8:00 am and surprise surprise... no one was there to pick up...

sooo... i went to the directory and looked for another number... i ended up calling PAL's 24 booking and custumer service hotline mehmeh... and this very preppy lady takes my call... i wince at the recollection of all the prep and sugar and happiness in her voice... *rolls eyes* i had to summon all the strength that i had to stop myself from telling her to keep the preppiness down by 10 notches... i mean... it was 8:30 in the morning!


but despite all that she got the work done and she was... nice... *shakes head*



Sunday, January 02, 2005

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey!!! XD *bounces off the wall* :P heehee


:P lol... i wasn't this genki 30 seconds ago... -.-;; but i couldnt help myself... lewey did something awfully cuteee... :P he had a hard time getting up to his "penthouse" because of all that fat that's concentrated in his tummy area... *looks down on my own tummy* meh... hmp!

i guess mommy got tired of me declaring out of the blue how fat i was and asked me if i would like to be enrolled in slimmer's world... :P i'm not getting my hopes up... she always tells me she'd do this and that for me and she fails to, most of the time, start to act on what she said... geh...

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaai... i miss ten-chan na... damn it!!! >.<>no one is allowed to call ten-chan don robert save creole... >.<;* but asked me to tell celine not to call him dada don robert... for obvious reasons...

oh well... :P

okaaaaaaaay... here's a to-do list for the first quarter of 2005:

  • have mommy buy me doll shoes
  • decide on what food to bring for the kada thing
  • give out the remaining gifts i have here in the house
  • find and secure another school... a decent one...
  • get driving lessons...
  • study either english or japanese... or both...
  • learn how to effectively use all the live journal stuff...
  • acquire more clothes... :P
  • try not to be too mushy and genki... heehee

end post~ :P

~~~i am cute and i am pretty... you can go to hell if you think otherwise... XD~~~