no classes today... it rained so goddamn hard that streets were flooded in record time... i couldnt go to school if i tried... i would have just gotten stranded and fucking wet and freaking tired...

damn...

let's talk about something that doesnt quite qualify as important...


MY SISTER

she's one of those blessed few that actually manages to get under my skin and push so much anger and hatred out of me...

khan wants to take the task of kicking her ass... kuya gino told me to "Deal with it - you'll be rid of her someday"...

really really really helpful... yeah... definitely...

aaaaaaaaaaaaah fuck... my hands down to everything that even whispers "i'm just a bunch of crap"

screw that...

"moving on..."

Ctrl+Alt+Del is really really really really really cute! really takes my mind off the bitches and bastards of the world...

i'll get back to my blog as soon as i think of something else to shit about...

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angel sanctuary...

my interest for that anime has been reborn in me i guess... i passed by a tokyo kids the other day and saw this magnificent wall scroll of angel sanctuary...

i acquired, for my collection, the oav of angel sanctuary... but it turns out it was busted and i cant have it replaced for every single copy that they have of the movie are all trash as well...

i'm still to get my hands on a dvd copy of AS... which costs $29.99 on the net... and much later... after i have completed vampire game... volume 3 and 4 are just plain cute by the way... i'll collect all volumes... i think there are 20... screw every single piece of crummy human flesh who thinks i'm just wasting my time, effort and money on collecting them...

just like most of the anime series/movies that i prize the most in my collection, i find angel sanctuary to be something i can really relate to in more ways than one... i also think this certain anime can engage me into an intellectual/philosophical episode... i really think this would not fail to entertain me...

on another note...

i have managed to educe kuya gino's skills to help me, make that make me, a much better and comfortable blog layout... the current layout has served its purpose well... i just feel like i've grown out of it... and i think i'm ready for more black, blood red and something else...

which brings me to the last part of today's post i guess...

i visited ueno's blog and found a quizzila result and engaged myself in another quizilla quiz...

result?

Which Deadly Sin Do You Represent

brought to you by:

Quizilla

new realization...

i'm a very angry person... add violent to that... i havent exactly gobled anyone up... but i have snapped at people i shouldnt have for numerous times...

damn...

i hate it... to be angry also means to be rotten afterwards... i hate it... i really really really really really hate it... i've had a couple of people telling me to let it out... but i seriously think that if i do... id be hurting a lot of people and id be having a lot of people hating me...

me feeling better is not worth all that trouble...

i feel that i dont exactly have "friends" anymore... so why would i make a move to possibly erase all of their faces in my book and mine in theirs... it's pathetic how i hang on to something i dont feel is there...

fucking hell and damnation...

i shitting hate me!!! i really really really freaking hate me...

funny thing is... i cant even think of suicide to just end or get away from all that anger-business...

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this happened last week... friday...

i was sitting beside Grasya, who was reading my notes in surveying class, when this girl, who was one of those religious and righteous people, took the empty seat beside her and started asking us questions that make me laugh and raise my eyebrow at her at the same time...

first, she asked us about our religion... are we christians or catholics? i said i was catholic... grasya said she was too... and then this girl asked if we knew the meaning of christianity... i looked at her and found that she was serious in asking the question...

@.@ it was interesting and a tad bit irritating really... i made it known to her that i'm not extra religious but i do believe in god... and i dont exactly go with the worship thing that YFC Mapua does because i think it's fake and just i dont know... but i do worship god in my own way... Grasya was, more or less, on the same page as i am...

end of discussion? Hell NO!!!

geez... the girl kept on talking and then started to preach about how god loves us and how we are all special and shit... in the middle of all that she said that she believes that all the gods of every religion are different... and then on and on she went... she even said that she's not forcing her opinion on us...*yeah right* she just cant pass the opportunity to talk to us about it... bleah...

so in the end... we were saved by our professor who was a whole period late... and had us transfer to the other room... where she did not bother us no longer...

oh wow...

i am so not commenting on that...

thanks BLOGGER!!!

geez... i'm living with a hypocrite... but then again... the mere fact i called her a hypocrite would make me one too...

oh well...

everything pisses her off when she doesnt get what she wants... she's not used to being refused and denied of what she demanded... that's because she, along with my mother and anyone else who agrees with them, thinks of herself as the royal power in this house... her every word is the law and should be followed else suffer the unyeilding wrath of her royal highnes... i'm not exaggerating... she really said so... i prettied the sentence abit... she's not exactly the one for flowery words... but i swear on my future aggrieved grave that she did say that she is the royal highness and that she must be followed...

to deny her anything or to irritate her unintentionally or otherwise would result to her going off like a long overdue volcanoe... she can turn our house inside out and upside down when she's in a fair mood and she can wreck more havoc when she's pissed in the very least...

not exactly a wonderful sight to behold and something to experience...

and she thinks i'm the antagonist... *she thinks of everyone as the antagonist in her live* well maybe from her perspective i am... but to me? she surpasses that... she makes all the villains who have graced the hearts of those who watched with fear look pathetically mediocre...

she gets red and steamy about unreturned and misplaced items that belong to her... but then again... i should point out that she's not exactly the ideal person to look at as an example... she misplaces my things... i would find my stuff in places i did not leave them in... i would not see some of my things for days because she cant remember where she put it...

i dont own much in this house that's why it's not hard for me to track the stuff i own... and since mother dear is so very much her pawn... i refuse to subject myself to further heat and damage by just shutting up and simply taking the first wave... which is usually the last...

now... on to another person who i am also allergic to...

call me shallow and whatever you want... but i still cant get over being stood up and not recieving any apology or explanation for said rude act... a nugget of advice to her though... she shouldnt be so loud about wanting to have someone... it makes her look soo desperate, it's pitiful...

so in the future?

...i shall make myself a house so very much far from those who give me insane urgings to slit their throats and watch them till they pale from too much blood loss then stitch the wound up just so i could torment them longer... and be surrounded with my books and the person i hold dear the most...

as for those who make me itch... they can rot in their own shit for all i care...

goodnight cynical, hurtful and unpretty world! i hope you fare well not...

thanks BLOGGER for the space...

it's about time that i got back into posting here... i've neglected this place long enough...
 
which way should i go? left or right? DLSU or MIT??? should i stay or go? what do you think??? if i go... can i stay??? and if i stay... would i be happy??
 
i welcome confusion...
i welcome grief...
 
i bid happiness to come...
i do the same with glory...
 
i say goodbye to comfort...
i wish contentment a good journey...
 
i whisper see you again to sorrow...
i tell hurt to come back again...
 
to block either one of the positive or the negative
is to blind one's self...
 
to numb the heart from the pain
is to refuse to feel pleasure...
 
to shy away from satisfaction
is to waste life so precious...
 
to not accept both good and bad as part of life...
is to be a drone driven by delusions...
 
wow...
 
it's been a long time since i wrote another one... and it's not exactly dark... coolie!!!
 
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